I am the kind of person who thinks a lot about life. I wonder about the world. I want to understand things like how a kangaroo lives its life hopping, why shooting stars sometimes look blue, what motivates people to smile or not smile at strangers. It’s just the way I have always been.
I like to reevaluate my life from time to time in this same spirit. To reflect on my days. To see the reality of what I am choosing to spend my life energy doing. Why am I doing it? Is there a better, more loving way for me to live my life? If so, what holds me back? Do I choose to spend another year investing my time and money in the things I do now?
At least four full-time RV traveling families we are close to have left the RV life for a more traditional home life. Jon and I will usually have the “are we still doing the right thing” discussion after we hear the news. I like having the discussion because it encourages us to take a look at where we are in life. From time to time we talk about the needs of the kids and if we are still meeting their needs as parents. Is there something more we need to prioritize for them?
Getting a break from our normal life is an effective way to gain some perspective. This month the kids have moved into our parents’ home and have nested in their own space and room. Grace set up her piano and her drawing board to leave it there for another day. Eli has his own computer area, and Ethan finds quiet on the futon upstairs for composing. Jon and I have the RV all to ourselves and privacy that never occurs on the road. This month is a nice break for all of us with personal space.
After 5 1/2 years of living in this RV we have a lot to consider. Our kids are no longer small, but large adults in this same simple space. Our RV is now 14 years old and pulls a 15 year old van with 246,000 miles on it (a Honda, of course)! So, we are in a place where we are wondering if we invest Jon’s life energy (money) into a new rig or try something different. Do we wander by renting houses, house sitting/pet sitting, or by living in hotels? We don’t know.
The freedom we have as wanderers has been like oxygen for our soul hypoxia. We have never felt so alive or so connected with each other or our children. We are no longer numb, but alive. The anxiety that used to weigh upon us and keep us to a strict schedule is no longer ruling our lives . We still cling to the freedom we have been blessed with.
So what is the next chapter?
If there is one lesson I have learned time and time again on the road, it is that plans are meant to change and allowing things to unfold is the most loving path. So as my friends say, we set jello plans. And right now our jello plans are to bring the kids to another country for four months. To live in a rented house and experience the third world country of Panama. To become part of a society outside of the luxuries of the United States. We will become international travelers trusting again that our next path will appear after we take the leap off the cliff once again.
Thank goodness love is everywhere you go.